Jealousy, disappointment, relief, frustration, longing...these feelings refuse to listen to reason. You can't expect them to make sense. You can't expect consistancy. You just have to make the best of it. Right?
Meanwhile, I love this verse; it's so...Japanese.
Kimi o mitsumete iru yo.
Zutto nagamete iru yo.
Hohoende mitete ageru kara
Suki ni shinai yo.
Aiso yoku shite iru yo;
Wagamama hitotsu iwanai kara,
Hanashi awasete yaru kara
Tsuno dase, yari dase, shippo dase!